I wrote a post a while back about not being able to stick to things. And I’ve actually gotten better! I’ve been doing yoga five or six times a week for months now. I’ve been keeping a bullet journal. I put on retinol face cream at night (and oh my god, my skin looks amazing).
So I decided it was time for a new challenge. I like to joke that it isn’t worth drinking if it doesn’t have alcohol or caffeine, but after drinking until 3am a few Saturdays ago and coming home feeling sober, I realized I might need to stop saying such fate-provoking things.
So Lover and I decided to give up drinking for two weeks. It’s been 9 days, and surprisingly, easier than I thought. I have been genuinely surprised by how much I use drinking for entertainment. Nothing to do on a Friday? Stay in and drink. Nothing to do on a Saturday? Go out and drink! But alas, I had to find a real hobby last weekend.
So, I stayed home playing video games because it’s too hot to go outside. Sunday I woke up at 6:15am WITHOUT AN ALARM CLOCK AND I WASN’T TIRED. It was incredible. I went to the pool and read books until I got hungry.
But, being the stubborn Cancer that I am, this wasn’t enough of a challenge so I decided to cut back on caffeine. (I am not a certified lunatic, so I didn’t give it up entirely, I just decided to drink less.) Going cold turkey on caffeine would probably end up with me being fired for either crying from a migraine, not showing up at all, yelling at a client, or all three.
Now, this is hell. (What a surprise, to learn that the vice I thought I had was only a hobby, and what I thought was my morning routine is a legitimate addiction.) I felt like I had the flu for the better part of a week after cutting down to one cup of coffee a day. I snapped at Lover and Ithaca. I growled when approached and fell asleep early. I would not recommend this to anyone.
But the quest for self-improvement goes ever onward. Wish me luck!